Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Varanasi and Bodhgaya 2014




The journey to Varanasi and Bodhgaya has been overwhelming for me and my mother.  Travelling by train with Bhramachari's , time flew by bhajans and chants. I sang for two full hours in the train with Brahamachari's and a few volunteers. It was so relieving. The presence of Brahmachari's and Sanyasis was too much for Anita to fill me up with the grace of the place and people. It was such a wonderful experience travelling with people who have a common goal and many like me who want a path by themselves.

Mangal Aarti at Kashi Vishwanath temple and the boat ride for witnessing the Ganga Aarti was beautiful. The point where the boat stopped at Manikarnika Ghat and as we chanted 'Bhramananda Swaroopa' is still close to my soul. I would like to share some touching moments in this journey, the day which has given to us to explore , self  and my mother got an opportunity to do the ritual for my father ,  when the priest said that one can do pinda Dhaan for a close friend who passed away, tears rolled out of my eyes . I was touched by the sensitivity of the human emotions and the ritual which can understand and respect human relationships way beyond flesh and blood.

After we finished it I walked along the banks of ganga playing the song 'Tunga Tarange Gange' by Bombay Jayashri watching Ganges  and the people as I took a boat ride to reach Manikarnika and there I stood for sometime watching the dead bodies being burnt , I was silenced by the reality of death and I found myself cornered along the streets of this ghat when people were bringing in dead bodies chanting 'Raam Naam Sathya Hai'. The meditation at the Kalabhairav temple was also an experience that I cant describe, something in me was silenced by the space and energy. I feel that even now, the silence which is known only to the dead a kind of peace and quietness .

Still and Alive on the Banks of River Ganga
Fire and the Wood celebrates the union with the body 
Purity and Chastity being burnt along with one
The Remains of the Ashes from the Dirt of Life
Every Breath that reminds me of my mortality
Silence captures my heart and stills my mind
The peace of being drifted away from the suffering
Im filled in the silence of the Soul within
Only the sensitive can notice my Silence 
For its the awareness of dying every time I breathe
The dead and the dying I witness with my own eyes
Ah!  The Silence of the suffering culminates here..

-- Offering by GuruDasi

I was touched by the ritual at Bodhgaya when we offered Pinda Dhaan for our ancestors in Vishnu Pad temple. My mother said she truly realized the blessing of having me as my child because without you I wouldnt have come to this place and managed to offer this, she bursted into tears. One can offer Pind to Animals which one killed unintentionally, intentionally and one can also offer Pind  to our close friends. Sometimes rituals connect us more to people than reality I thought.

BodhGaya's Vishnu Pad temple was very calm, the energy was very calm and there was a certain sense of let go in that very air. I saw a lot of young children and women begging on the streets of Varanasi and Bodhgaya. I couldn't sleep well because I remembered Sadhguru's words the feeling that one has more than the other will itself bother you very much. This was happening to me since I was eating well and dressed well and it was so very disturbing. 

My mother said she was very disturbed in Varanasi seeing the Manikarnika Ghat and she felt very peaceful in Bodhgaya and thats why she decided to sit on the temple entrance for a very long time. She said something in her felt a certain quietness which she cannot describe, compassion was overflowing because I saw my mother in a very different state that day she spoke gently and softly and looked peaceful and never obstructed me for anything unlike in Varanasi .

As the tradition said one must leave something in Kashi so I took a vow within myself to leave a part of myself.
My Sincere Thanks to Brahmachari's,Sanyasis, ISHA Volunteers and Sadhguru for making this happen for me and my mother. This trip gave me many answers to questions that I have been searching for all along.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Poetry on Love in Hindi - Zindagi ki Manzil

Najane Zingadi Kahan Shuru Huyee
Ek Hawa Jaise Saason Mein Bas Kayee
Saasen Rukthi Tho Bhi Yei Zindagi Ki Armaan Nehin Rukthi
Armaawon Ki Sangeet Nehin Rukthi
Rukhi Hein Tho  Mere Yei Zindagi Aapki Awaaz Pe
Rukthey Rukthey Yeh Mere Manzil Tho Nehin Ban Kayee
Hazri Bankar Tho Kahin Na Reh Jayoge Tum
Mere Zindagi Mein Hamasha Ke Liye
Aapke Hazri Tak Judi Hein Mere Manzil
Manzilen Yei Kaise Judthi Armanon Ke Bina...

--  Offering by GuruDasi 

Friday, October 24, 2014



 Ghulam Ali was right, any atheist would agree to his email, I declare myself as a GOD, am a Self-made person, and GOD as such does not exist. And a theist would say, GOD is within me and hence that email is right from his context also. But from a corporate mind, an individual is recognized only with an ID, names do play a Role but primarily it's the ID.

 "Does GOD have an ID?" To call a GOD, a sound(mantra) is associated with it and that's his ID, a form(Yantra) is given and when the Sound and the Form are united, a Tantra is born and yes, it's an ID. Alive and vibrant when called from within, the ID responds to the caller. So many GOD ID's and why do we need so many? Just like the Nature has so many species so are the GOD's in accordance to a particular energy that is associated with the entity of Nature.

Is there a justification to the existence of GOD, can science and faith coincide? The ID responds only to the Caller, a Caller who earnestly calls. Why so many ID's? When science says all is born out of same matter and it exists physically based on certain measures. Who distinguishes this? Is this our killed innocence which is destroyed by the educational system or our society and the environment in which we were born in and which knows us by an ID called Name. Can we not have one ID? Why do we have Voter's ID,Driving license,Passport ID?

The US thought about it long back and invented SSN number and started identifying people with the ID. When man has an ID, can a GOD not? Who denies? who Agrees? What are the verses then? Verses from so many religions which people have been reciting  for ages and verses on the lips of an Atheist , who denies the existence of an ID . Little do we know that the ID resides inside each one of us and we keep looking for ID's outside and how do we recognize our ID, when our Personal ID's match the Global ID that is the Nature, Music,Space,Time,the energy. So the ID continues to live on and no one else is given the same ID again. Am I trying to build a concept to decipher the birth of SSN number in the US.
A college graduate joined my team and I was asked to get his credentials for mapping him onto my project. I wrote to him asking for his Global Employee ID (GID) and I get a reply back saying my GOD is GA 579960 in brackets he writes (Ghulam Ali). This email where that young boy misspelled the alphabet 'O' instead of I, changed the entire context of the email and gave birth to blog ID. Interestingly, the alphabets I and O are adjacent to each other in the key board.

My Research mind makes me look in www.m-w.com and here are my results..

id: Noun

psychology : a part of a person's unconscious mind that relates to basic needs and desires

Full Definition of ID

: the one of the three divisions of the psyche in psychoanalytic theory that is completely unconscious and is the source of psychic energy derived from instinctual needs and drives — compare ego, superego

I cannot overlook this email from my team mate just as I do my software programming, overlooking the warnings. So is it an warning for the people who don't match their personal ID's with the Global ID's? May be not? Or May be yes. As long as an ID can call something other than us , ID's are fine.. Do you know your ID? Will you respond to my call? Can I have your ID please?

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Wheat or White? Health Care /Beauty

The Weekend was already planned for Sanskrit Spoken Class and some shopping and the parlour for personal care and hygiene. The lady before me took a long time for billing in the GT parlour and the person at the counter was overly courteous and spoke '7000 Rupees' please. The person offered me to seat for a while until the payment was made by the lady since I was moving around like a restless cat. I declined politely and agreed to stand until my turn came. My curiosity was huge that I asked him, a hefty bill Ah! , he exclaimed with pride 'Madam, Last month end a family had been here for a wedding and I billed 50,000'. I asked him 'what do you think is important' ? Health care or Beauty? He says people spend a lot of money on Beauty than health care and he is true. I have seen people desperate about their looks than how they weighed and felt about health. As I paid my bill, he said the  massages  also has a big  market presence in South Asia unlike India which has the major market for Beauty. I told him , India also it has a big market space but its more of a Therapeutic rather than a luxury. But then my statement can vary according to the class of people. Beauty  and Theraphy cannot go together. But the modern world, uses the terminology Aroma Facial Theraphy and sells it in the name of beauty with the outer lining as therapeutic. I refused the facial when my attendant at the parlour explained me that she can get me fair with a facial . I told her , am more happy to be what am. Wheatish colour has to wheatish and not made white. Moreover, I really love me for what am, except that I want to shed a few kilos desperately to look more healthy than beautiful.